Dream Visions – One Small Step in Hell

My partner and I had plans to drive to his friend’s house for his birthday (note, it turns out it was his birthday per my partner the next morning, I had not memorized it). However, when we get to my car, the car had been switched with a jeepish vehicle without a roof, doors, or…Read more Dream Visions – One Small Step in Hell

13 Steps to Self-Healing and Becoming a Healer

Piggybacking on my Youtube video where I ramble on about my thoughts on divinity, perfection, God, system-adherence, blind faith, and the Anon 12 Steps in relation to these concepts, it felt appropriate to rewrite the traditional 12 steps. If you are interested in the reasoning behind the changes, watch the video. Here are the improved…Read more 13 Steps to Self-Healing and Becoming a Healer

Claiming the Unconscious and Clarifying the Self via Lucid Dreaming: My 8 Step Process

Cut out any excess indulgences or chemical patches which can block your neural pathways (within safe bounds and with the assistance of a doctor if prescriptions are involved. Some medications may in fact assist in neural communication for you while some may not depending on your unique situation). This includes caffeine, alcohol, marijuana, nicotine, sleep…Read more Claiming the Unconscious and Clarifying the Self via Lucid Dreaming: My 8 Step Process

Conversations With Dead People – Episode 7: Patient Zero of My Dysfunctional Relationships

This one snuck up on me, as the end of the video will give away. This one is primarily about my mother, though certainly applies to both of my parents. The primary lesson in all this is the danger of prioritizing material wealth and well-being over emotional health and well-being, physical health, interpersonal relationship health,…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 7: Patient Zero of My Dysfunctional Relationships

Conversations With Dead People – Episode 6: My 20th Birthday Cacophonous Affair

This year marks the 10th anniversary of my 20th birthday disaster (yes, I'm 30 this year). My birthday and spring in general has historically been a hallmark for general pain and suffering for much of my life, for one reason or another. I remember a time when I was really young, before the age of…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 6: My 20th Birthday Cacophonous Affair

A Casual Cam and More Polished Demo Recording of I’ll Be There from the Musical, The Pirate Queen

On St. Patrick's day I felt nostalgic for the performing days, so I attempted a casual performance of a song I used to sing a lot back in the day. Stumbled over some stuff, didn't quite hit every note, but all-in-all, I had fun and it felt good for all the time that had passed. Even…Read more A Casual Cam and More Polished Demo Recording of I’ll Be There from the Musical, The Pirate Queen

Conversations With Dead People – Episode 4: The Sister that Chose Not to be a Parent

See the Youtube video. It says it all really. My sister saved me in many ways thru my childhood. For this I am ever grateful. However, things could have been better even so had priorities been different. Better for just about everybody. There was some power there. But those were not the priorities my sister…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 4: The Sister that Chose Not to be a Parent