Conversations With Dead People – Episode 7: Patient Zero of My Dysfunctional Relationships

This one snuck up on me, as the end of the video will give away. This one is primarily about my mother, though certainly applies to both of my parents. The primary lesson in all this is the danger of prioritizing material wealth and well-being over emotional health and well-being, physical health, interpersonal relationship health,…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 7: Patient Zero of My Dysfunctional Relationships

Conversations With Dead People – Episode 6: My 20th Birthday Cacophonous Affair

This year marks the 10th anniversary of my 20th birthday disaster (yes, I'm 30 this year). My birthday and spring in general has historically been a hallmark for general pain and suffering for much of my life, for one reason or another. I remember a time when I was really young, before the age of…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 6: My 20th Birthday Cacophonous Affair

A Casual Cam and More Polished Demo Recording of I’ll Be There from the Musical, The Pirate Queen

On St. Patrick's day I felt nostalgic for the performing days, so I attemptedĀ a casual performance of a song I used to sing a lot back in the day. Stumbled over some stuff, didn't quite hit every note, but all-in-all, I had fun and it felt good for all the time that had passed. Even…Read more A Casual Cam and More Polished Demo Recording of I’ll Be There from the Musical, The Pirate Queen

Conversations With Dead People – Episode 4: The Sister that Chose Not to be a Parent

See the Youtube video. It says it all really. My sister saved me in many ways thru my childhood. For this I am ever grateful. However, things could have been better even so had priorities been different. Better for just about everybody. There was some power there. But those were not the priorities my sister…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 4: The Sister that Chose Not to be a Parent

The Core of Counseling – Self-Help: My Steps to Improving Self-Awareness

See the video where I ramble through these steps and a myriad of pitfalls and obstacles that I've encountered. A general overview for reference: Activate your sentient: Choose to be aware. Monitor yourself in a kind and neutral fashion. Look for "odd" thoughts or behaviors. You will know them better and better as you find…Read more The Core of Counseling – Self-Help: My Steps to Improving Self-Awareness

Delving Ever Deeper into My Daddy Issues – A Creepy Shower and Night Terrors of Choking

See the video for the rambles as I try to unravel more of my daddy issues and where they stem from. Another memory involving a shower came to mind which I explore, along with the general conditions of my childhood, and finally a tidbit about night terrors and complex PTSD flashbacks to a traumatic sensation.…Read more Delving Ever Deeper into My Daddy Issues – A Creepy Shower and Night Terrors of Choking

Conversations With Dead People – Episode 2: My Soulbrother

See the video for my initial rambles. It is enlightening the subjects which bring up certain feelings that are so clear when watching a video back. There was a time I had difficulty watching a video of myself, even a short one. But I suppose in the method of self-reflections and completely within self-control, it…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 2: My Soulbrother