This one snuck up on me, as the end of the video will give away. This one is primarily about my mother, though certainly applies to both of my parents. The primary lesson in all this is the danger of prioritizing material wealth and well-being over emotional health and well-being, physical health, interpersonal relationship health,…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 7: Patient Zero of My Dysfunctional Relationships
This year marks the 10th anniversary of my 20th birthday disaster (yes, I'm 30 this year). My birthday and spring in general has historically been a hallmark for general pain and suffering for much of my life, for one reason or another. I remember a time when I was really young, before the age of…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 6: My 20th Birthday Cacophonous Affair
See the Youtube video. It says it all really. My sister saved me in many ways thru my childhood. For this I am ever grateful. However, things could have been better even so had priorities been different. Better for just about everybody. There was some power there. But those were not the priorities my sister…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 4: The Sister that Chose Not to be a Parent
See the video for the rambles as I try to unravel more of my daddy issues and where they stem from. Another memory involving a shower came to mind which I explore, along with the general conditions of my childhood, and finally a tidbit about night terrors and complex PTSD flashbacks to a traumatic sensation.…Read more Delving Ever Deeper into My Daddy Issues – A Creepy Shower and Night Terrors of Choking
See the video for my initial rambles. It is enlightening the subjects which bring up certain feelings that are so clear when watching a video back. There was a time I had difficulty watching a video of myself, even a short one. But I suppose in the method of self-reflections and completely within self-control, it…Read more Conversations With Dead People – Episode 2: My Soulbrother
Okay, maybe not actually dead, but certainly dead relationships. I'm a Buffy nerd so I couldn't resist (it was the most introspective and psychologically powerful episode in the entire series in my opinion). As I see it, you cannot always bridge the gap created between two individuals, but you can find a way to express the…Read more Conversations with Dead People – Episode 1: In-Love with an ISTJ (as an INFJ)
Please view my Youtube video wherein I pose the question: How do we know when to salvage a relationship and when to just let it go? Where is the line drawn? What prompts a perception of toxicity versus one of simple misunderstanding. Open question to all, I am interested in your experiences and insights.